Archive | July, 2011

God is God and I am not.

23 Jul

This short but powerful statement was repeated to me several times during my time at Hume Lake. God is God and I am not. Okay, right. . . I know this. So why am I constantly taking matters into my own hands and acting as if this life is my own? Why do I make my own plans and abide by my own will? Why do I act on my own desires rather than inquire of the God I claim to serve? Throughout 1 Samuel, Saul is in hot pursuit of David because of straight up jealousy and pride. Saul was king and didn’t do such a great job, so God anoints David as King and Saul decides to go after David with a whole lot of men. And David sins and falls sometimes; wages war on a man who won’t give him food, lies to a priest to get what he wants, sleeps with a married woman, gets her pregnant, and has her husband killed in battle. The big difference between Saul and David is a convicted heart and the act of repentance. David recognized God as a righteous judge and a loving father and he went after God with his whole heart in order to know the heart of God. Our speaker at Hume last week said several times that, “The way we view God shapes the way we respond to God.” David obviously viewed God much differently than how Saul viewed God so that made David’s response to God, one of submission, surrender, and repentance, much different than Saul’s response to God. I respond to God half-heartedly much of the time, if I even respond. Maybe that means that I don’t truly understand God and his character and his love. During the last few weeks, I have been trying to better understand who God is so that I might obey and respond to him. I’m reading Desiring God by John Piper. He writes, “The chief end of God is to glorify God and enjoy Himself forever.” I love that. To me, that statement says so much about who God is and why he created us. All that scripture says about us being created in God’s image, about God’s redemptive plan for the world, about the cross and resurrection, and about eternity with God for those who put their faith in Christ, points towards a loving creator who desires nothing more than to glorify himself because glorifying himself brings us the most joy. That’s what’s best for us, that God glorify himself. It seems strange to say it that way, but God has to glorify himself because he is the creator and the beginning and the end. It would be weird for him to glorify anyone or anything but himself. That’s the kind of God I want to serve and respond to. I think that’s the God that David saw. He realized who God was and responded accordingly.

“God’s quest to be glorified and our quest to be satisfied reach their goal in this one experience: our delight in God, which overflows in praise. For God, praise is the sweet echo of His own excellence in the hearts of His people. For us, praise is the summit of satisfaction that comes from living in fellowship with God.” – John Piper, Desiring God

– Vanessa


I don’t usually like talking to this guy, but…

22 Jul

Dear satan,

I hate that you try to corrupt all that is good, that brokenness exists in this world because of you. I hate that your presence lets a little boy who could otherwise be healthy, to have a life-threatening condition. I hate that there is unexplanatory sadness in the world, because you are busy at work. 

But let me tell you something, I’m working hard too. I’m fighting you tooth and nail, trusting in a Strength thats bigger than my own. (Ephesians 6:11)

And you know, i can’t help everyone, but i can help that little boy. We just flew him to a hospital to get some major help, and his body and soul were affected. So were his family, and friends. You meant evil for evil, but I work for Someone who can turn evil for good, so that thru your corruption of innocence, my heavenly family is actually expanding.

So though you’re fighting desperately like a choking lung in a drowning man, I will not despair in your acts. I get to live a heck of alot longer than you, so it is YOU who should be worried. (James 4:7)


Jenn, member of the Winning Team (just keepin it real)

It’s coming!!

19 Jul

Get ready for a full-on attack of blogging goodness. I just got back from a week at Hume Lake and a lot has been hitting me and I am excited to share some of those things with both of you. I miss you and love you both a lot.